Away from that feeling

Have you ever had that feeling?

The feeling you had to leave

Where you had to get away

Away from the chaos

Away from the door slammings, the voice yellings

Away from the times you have broken-down

Away from the fakes and the crowds

Away from the noises

Away from wishing for tranquility and serenity

Away from the person people see you as and trying to prove them wrong

Away from the people who hate you

Away from the assumptions and the rumors

Away from the lies people make you believe about yourself

Away from the tiny pieces of thread that hold everything together but are on the verge of ripping

Away from all the pain and heart ache

Away from those tiny moments of bliss being torn to shreds

Away from the put-downs and the critics

Away from your enemies and your obstacles

Away from the disasters and the devastation

Away from the separations and the dividers

Away from the insecurities and the differences

Away from yourself and weight that pulls you down

Have you ever had that feeling?

Italy

I am in Italy right now for my brothers wedding ceremony...... i am so excited because Julia is coming back and i will see her tonight. it has been 6 months since i have seen her in person. i really miss shoshi because we are never on skype at the same time no matter how much we plan it through email but i guess its too difficut but if we are ment to be friends than we shall talk to each other. i really dont want to loose contact with her becuase she is like my the bestest friend i have and will and had ever had!

Life right now

Today I found out that for 8th grade i am going to Pacific Hills middle school. I am really upset because i don't want to leave my BFFL there. Shoshi and i are sooooo close and i don't want to grow apart just because of the different schools. Julia is still in Italy and i get very sad because while she over there having the time of her life with her older sister having the relationship her and I will never have, i am stuck in LA being constricted by my parents because i got a C+ on my progress report. that is why they are sending me to Pacific Hills anyway. Raven is gone. She moved to Texas without telling me and she never answers my texts or calls or Skype. I hope the ONLY way for her to at least message me is through blog. i haven't blogged in a long time and i gotta say, it feels pretty nice to let it allll out. oh ya and i got back from Catalina and it turns out that my hue secret about a boy that i have an uncontrollable crush on got out. so YAY FOR THAT. sike! it is super awkward because i spent the whole last year trying to hurt him because he called me a hobbit. it is very difficult for me because i don't know if i can trust one of my friends because she might have told him but in order to find out i have to ask the guy. Any suggestions????????

Updates

Sorry I haven't been able to post in a while, my life is actually getting better. There isn't that much drama with me anymore and I have been having great days ever since I got back from winter vacation. I am going to start dancing more and my New Year's resolution is to eat only turkey burgers with the exceptions of In-N-OUT and buffalo burgers. My sister left a week ago to study in Italy for 6 months. I will miss her but now I am getting a chance to be an only child in the house. Hope all is well with everyone. Oh and I got braces and they H-U-R-T!

Finally

i finally get to post. ok so right now i'm in the Dominican Republic for vacation. it is so cool here because today i'm going zip-lining. this is the second time i will be doing this. on xmas eve it was so fun because my bro's wife has never gone on a trip with us but this year she surprised us especially my brother! it was soooooooo funny the way he reacted.

Thanksgiving

I love Thanksgiving. I always have because it allows me to eat a lot. All I do is eat turkey, mashed potatoes, cream corn, and lots of corn bread. But I think that the story behind it because after the Native Americans help the Pilgrims, the Pilgrims immediately slaughter them. But thanks to that we get to eat!

Depressed

On Monday I was very worried about my great-grandfather because he was in the hospital with double namonia and he had just turned 97 on sunday. It turns out while I was crying at 8 in the morning he died. It's very strange knowing that he is dead because he is like Superman to us. It's very hard because we all loved him and everyone in my family had a special relationship with him. He was my mother's grandfather so he died in Italy which makes this whole process much harder. My mom is going to Italy next week for the part when they take his ashes and put him into the grave. I wish that i could go but for some reason I can't. :(

My school life

I am going to write about my school life starting with my math teacher. My math teacher this year....... let's see how can I put this in nice words?Hum? Well he's not the most likable person. Oh who am I kidding he's horrible it has only been 5 weeks of school and he is already the most hated teacher in the 7th grade. My humanities teacher is really cool. She treats us our age and has a really fun way a teaching. my science teacher is the same one from the 6th grade. I still love her (don't think wrong!!!!!). My principle is OK. She sometimes can be very unfair. This one teacher who is the person who substitutes all of the grades is really funny. Not the kind of funny your thinking about but, she always acts like another race. Every week my friends and I have a weekly quote from her. She has to say something in a funny way in order for it to be the quote. My friends are awesome!!!!! They all got my back and I got theirs. I am trying EXTREMELY hard not to hold grudges and to just ignore the people who I'm having a problem with. Sometimes I can't help it and I get got into the drama (only my drama). My nose used to have all these red pimples, but ever since I let things go my nose is PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So that's pretty much my school life for now.

Sunday

I am so excited for Sunday!!! Because on Sunday my brother is getting married. We have known his fiance ever since they started dating 7 years ago. The color scheme is purple and since my sister and I are bridesmaids we had to find a purple dress. i only had to buy 1 because it is both a formal and a party dress. I can't wait till i get to walk down the isle holding my soon to be sister's ring!!!

My Friend Raven

My friend Raven is basically my sister. We get along great and always hang out with each other when we can. We both like dancing so we always make dances for her mom and my family. She is very smart and is also funny. She is a little strange but in a good way. She's the one with the youtube channel.